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| no, i'm still not amazingly skinny. i'm still chubby, BUT i have been consistently working out on my treadmill. i haven't really done so much restricting of food yet because i want to get really consistent working out first. once i get on a set schedule for working out where i physically and mentally feel the need to be on my treadmill everyday, then it will be easier to restric and i will have the motivation because i'm working out everyday. i have been doing great! 2 hoodia pills a day multi-vitamin lots of water and 1 hour on the treadmill on different inclines.  this has been a pretty "easy" committment and i have been running everyday so i am being productive. i haven't started with all the obsessive pilates, yoga, and crunches yet which i attribute directly to how i got so lean and long and skinny, BUT i will get there! thanks for the love, girls! keep up the good work! ups and downs, we're here for each other! peace, moxie  | | |
| i know... i'm not posting any fantastic pics. i'm sorry. i guess i'm just needing xanga as a medium to journal this weight loss battle. i have in the best posted some beautiful thinspo, so check out my old old enteries believe me, you'll love it! 2 "enteries": WEEKEND STUFF about my galavanting through Boston this weekened and WEIGHT STUFF, which is about... yep, you guessed it! WEEKEND STUFF the weekend was wildness as i assumed it would be. being a socialite in both manhattan and boston keeps you busy and gets you exhuasted for sure--we were in Boston this weekend. i hadn't been partying in boston for almost three weeks so there were lots of friends to say hello to. my girlfriends and i started the night(8:30pm) having din din at our friend's resturant/lounge on Newbury Street--cocktails, as i'm watching what i'm eating i didn't actually eat anything while we were out. i spent most of dinner sipping on my espresso matrinis but i can never be out with my girls without some kind of shots...we met several of the REV (Boston's soccer team) players and had patron with them--men after my own heart! at around 12:30am we then headed over to the club for several hours. there was a huge line that we were not waiting in. our girlfriend met us and we went in through the private entrance. thank god, because it was cold and i was wearing a little black dress with grey knitted thigh highs and black leather stiletto boots. we danced and had more shots. the music was great, the crowd was ok. some sloppy girls, but whatever. its not manhattan so i guess i'm not surprised. we headed over to an afterparty at our friend's penthouse at 2:30am. GORGEOUS! his terrace is amazing because it faces the Boston skyline. summer parties on the terrance are amazing! so, after spending time there for a couple glasses of wine, we headed to our other friend's place. at 4:00am, we ended up at our friends apartment and there were other people there so it was very chill and relax. we were up till about 7am and finally went to sleep. i woke up at 9am, woke up my girlfriend, and we went back to her place.... to spend sunday morning lazying around. SUNDAY and MONDAY were just relaxing days and now Tuesday is here.... back to my work out life! WEIGHT STUFF i'm still extremely tired. i need to get coffee or pop a hoodia pill. i haven't really had my dose of thinspo today so i'm not yet motivated. i'm still actually sitting in bed wondering if i should lay down for a bit more! i would like to get on the treadmill today... i think i'm going to either go slow or cut the time. we'll see how i feel when i actually get on there! GOOD LUCK TODAY, GIRLS! 
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| ....ok, well, i'm not there yet, but i did get so pissed off about something right before i got onto my treadmill (and i was thinking about it the whole time i was on there) that i forgot i was actually working out pretty hard. i was SUPER successful on the treadmill tonight and could not have done it without your love and support, your advice and comments and ALL THE THINSPO you girls post!!!!!! Treadmill love: 70 minutes (1hour 10 mins)***** 4.314 miles****** 656 calories ****** 99.0 carbs 3% incline just for laughs.... some fantastic treadmill lovin'... obvi they have been working hard on the routine... all of them are stick thin! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pv5zWaTEVkI | | |
|  .... i am not joking. she's 16 years old, 5'11, around 116 lbs. you think you have it bad! i have gorgeous thinspo in my own family! i love her to death, but God! Aren't we suppose to have the same genes? i would love to post more pics of her, but i don't know if my ego and self-confidence can take it! ha ha! ok, off to the treadmill to attempt at getting skinny. ... and yes, i'll post more pics of my cuz later! EDIT* just got off the treadmill.... 3.67 miles... awesome! thanks for the love and support girls! Gisele is 5'11 and 125lbs:  | | |
| November 30 was my last entry at Xanga and nothing has changed. Actually, I may have actually gotten chubbier since then. Awesome. I am trying to figure out what my problem is. I don't have a drug problem. I'm not unemployed. I don't live with my parents. I actually have an amazing life. I have 2 cars, a 7000 sq home in the mountains. I'm a socialite in Boston and in NYC. I have all the money I could ever need. I have family and friends that I love and love me back. I have everything. The majority of the girls on Xanga complain and complain and complain about all of the other factors in their life that make being perfect and being skinny so difficult. I don't, so then what's my problem? I have in the past been obsessed with my treadmill and was running everyday for 2 hours straight. I was taking some serious prescription weighloss pills that now I cannot get and have for the last +2 years been battling my weight. The lowest being 122 and the highest 151. Yea, gross. I know. My ideal weight is 118. For me, that is perfection because I will, be skinny skinny without those nasty bones that make you look like you're a starving person from a 3rd world country... you do know that no man... NO MAN finds a girl with bones like that attractive, right? AND, if you are one of those girls that REALLY does strive to look like Skelator, you are MORE delusional than you know... Some of the real girl thinspo makes me want to vomit... Seriously, eat some bread or something! Anyways, I need to write more. Writing about my struggle and successes helps me keep on track. And, even if no one reads this, its ok because as long as I keep going and keep motivating myself, maybe I will actually be skinny me again... ah, happiness... ----------- So, for the last week I have been living at this amazing ski resort in the White Mountains of Northern New Hampshire in The Balsams. I have been spoiled beyond even my own expectations... and have been binging like a huge cow... What is unfortunate is that there is this really cute small gym downstairs--that I haven't been going to everyday.... I did take advantage of it last night and was on the treadmill for an hour lastnight. I will be here for a couple more days and will try to stay motivated and focused enough to get on there again. I think once I get back home I will ease back into an excersize routine. I mean, I have an awesome treadmill at home by the window on the 4th floor of my house that looks out into the mountains... I need to be there more.... Also, I have sporadically been taking Hoodia pills which I like. I really feel it take my appetite away, but for some reason the whole time I have been here I have not gotten myself to take 1 pill! Oh when will be that first step...? That's all I need, the courage to take that first step... ---------- I feel sexier when I'm skinnier. I feel happier when I'm skinnier. Being skinny makes me feel more like myself. | | |
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